My Presence in the present

I can't even describe the peace I feel more each day I draw closer to Jesus. And really, it's a "no brainer" to know this would be the outcome of my actions. I mean He has only been telling me this for the past 8-9 months when due to a good relationship gone bad, I chose to go down that wrong road again. I decided it was a good idea to dwell on a man instead of "THE MAN". And that road led me to the ledge and at that ledge, instead of reaching up and grabbing God's hand that He was extending out to me, once again I chose to just slide down that ledge. And once I let myself get to the bottom of that pit... And even with all my "head knowledge" about our Father
in Heaven, I layed in that pit. Overcome with doubt, self pity, feeling so desperately unwanted and unlovable. And I almost gave up a few times. I did tell God I was done! (FYI NOT a good thing to declare EVER!) Not with Him, but with church, with my bible study, with wanting life really. Once I did that... That is when the enemy really swooped in and started making me feel unhappy and discouraged with some of the women in my bible study. But my mom had told me "Co that is the FIRST thing the enemy of your soul would want you to do, is stop going there. But it is the LAST thing you should do is stop meeting with ur "sisters". And so I pressed in, closer to Him, and kept going. And you know what? The promise happened! He made a way of escape from my miry pit of clay, and like I said, Duh, Co!! Ohhh sometimes I wonder " what was I thinking!!!"
So today's inspiration from my favorite devotional, Jesus Calling by Sarah Young, of course speaks to me today, and I hope to you too.
in Christ,
Co

KEEP YOUR EYES ON ME! Waves of adversity are washing over you, and you feel tempted to give up. As your circumstances consume more and more of your attention, you are losing site of Me. Yet I am with you, holding you by your right hand. I am fully aware of your situation, and I WILL NOT allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able to bear. Your gravest danger is worrying about tomorrow. If you try to carry tomorrow's burdens today, you will eventually fall under the load. Discipline yourself to live within the boundaries of today. It is in the present moment that I will walk close to you. Keep your focus on MY PRESENCE IN THE PRESENT.
Pslm 73:23; 1Cor 10:13
Pslm 63:23